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She'll Never Love Me BackI yearn for your acceptence.
I beg for your attention.
I sit here waiting,
waiting for all of this.
But I know,
this will never become a reality.
I am the 'Outcast'
I am the 'Freak'
I am the girl,
that everybody hates.
would a girl like you,
ever become my friend?
A friendship is as close as I will ever get to you.
What you don't know,
i'm in love with you.
Born this way
Baby I was born this way
If you can't accept it then I don't need you
There are others who accept me for who I am
You see me with my other friends there smiling?
Their the part that's important to me the accept me and support me
Me being the way I am shouldn't change the fact that you where and are my friend
Lady gaga taught me that there's nothing wrong with being who I am
I feel her love for the GLBTQP community
She taught me to not be afraid and that's why I love her
If you don't think I should be allowed to be who I am you're not important
I am transgendered please accept that
But to tell you the truth I don't think you will be able to
No matter what you say to me can tear my world apart
Because I know it gets better
Does it freak you out that I like both male and female?
Does it scare you that I actually don't care what gender someone is and will just date them for who they are?
Do you think I have a choice in how I feel inside or who I like?
Do you know how badly it kills me insi
My FamilyI was only seventeen when I found you
I fell in love with you the moment I saw you,
My boy friend never understood why.
You were only fifteen, at the time.
You were shy, you kept to yourself,
Always looking so sad,
You had a few good friends but
You were always alone when I saw you.
I always wanted to talk to you
But never knew what to say.
Time moved on and I forgot
About the quite kid in the corner.
In till I was friends with your friends
Then I saw you there with them,
Laughing having a good time.
I deiced it was time to say hi,
And so I did.
We chatted for a long time that day.
We soon were inseparable
From one another.
We chatted up a storm as much as we could
I learned that you were afraid of heights
That your favorite color was red
Your favorite animal was a Tie
Between two a
Pigmy monkey & tiger shark.
We laughed and had some great
Times together playing hide n seek, tag
And other childish games.
I felt like I found a long lost friend
I felt like we were friends for
Tale of the Love Stricken
That dream came to me again.
It's the dream where I fell in love.
My partner and I were dating
And I was able to see him in my arms
It felt so real when I would hold him
Feel his firm, strong back
I felt like I didn't want to wake up from it, ever
But when I awoke to the sound of an adjusting door
I came to realize that
You were so far away, in a place where I cannot reach you
You were with her, which I am forced to accept
So I devote myself to my work
To the wickedness known as the real world
I gave up on love a long time ago
However, if I can't have love in reality
can I have it in the world of my fantasies and dreams?
if you need help making it through the dayremember:
The Coffee GodThe Coffee God behind the counter shuffles foot to foot, a dance of steam and espresso. Black painted fingernails, inch gauged ears and a gray striped sweatshirt, hood crooked on his back. There's a cigarette tucked behind one ear; it bobs and twitches with each step.
“Non-fat caramel latte,” he calls, just as he always does, part of a spell, part of a mantra, toneless (just a tuck at the end). I reach. He looks up.
The espresso maker hisses.
There's something like a grin, something like a spark, something like a shared secret linked eye to eye. When he passes over the drink (rough cardboard sleeve hot to the touch), he lingers. Our fingers brush, a shiver, a jolt, a ten-watt shock.
The Coffee God tilts his chin, shouts, “Hey, mind if I take my break now?”
and ducks around the counter without waiting for a reply.
He slips his cigarette between his lips without taking his eyes from mine. I follow him out the door.
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